"if you wake up at a different time, in a different place, can you wake up as a different person?" edward norton.....fight club

so i just went back and read all of my old xanga posts.  pretty crazy.  i used to post quite often then all of  a sudden i started posting every few months.  well thats primarily because i havent had the time to post.  ive been to caught up in being a husband and a father.  two things that im still scared im going to fuck up.  it was really nice to see my philosophy on life change through the course of about a year.  i had direction. i lost direction. i found it again.  it used to be only about me.  what made me happy.  then somewhere along the line i started thinking about my boys.  how to make them happy.  not to say i dont still want to do things i enjoy.  but all of the major decisions of my life are now focused on them. for instance im going to school again.  im choosing a job that i will enjoy over a job that i would love.  its interesting,  the nihilism  the anarchy the apathy really all of it gone, in the blink of an eye.  suddenly i care about the future.  wait  i can sum it all up in three words.  suddenly i care.  yup.  that says it all.

"youre not aloowed to rent here anymore!" that one guy from that one movie yeah i know what movie im talkin about but do you?

getting pretty close to time for danielle to pop.  i cant wait till she goes back to work, i hate having to worry about money.  oh well this will be the last and final kid we have.  i go on the 9th to see a doctor about getting snipped.  i hate getting up at 630 in the morning driving an hour through rush hour traffic on 75 and then having to do math.  heres something for you to think about.... one hundred men stand in front of you,  one of them is innocent the other 99 are guilty.  you can do one of two things, kill them all or set them all free.  which.  what if it were reversed, 99 innocent and one guilty. think about.  also is a nobel peace prize excuse you of murder?

"ooooo weooo wweeeoooo oooooeeeeeeeeeee" jon crosby.... gay animal thingy.... the german video

holy shitballs batman.  so i just found out today that i have straight a's in school. how crazy is that. i dont think ive ever had straight a's.  but hey.. its sweet.  battlestar galactica is the greatest show ever.  thought the new baby was gonna pop this weekend.  its wierd, i dont want him to come out yet because i know its too early for him, but on the other hand i really want him to be here so i can start corrupting him as well.  god i love rival. the kid is a genius, maybe im biased but hey i think hes pretty freaking smart.  hes got this awesome full sized winchester repeating rifle toy,  yeah,  its great.  not too long ago i bought a peacemaker complete with gunbelt and holster. it rocks.  id like to see some indian try to scalp me now. haha. played heroscape with jake about a week ago.  that game rocks. so yeah. thats that.  oh yeah i also got a brand new mini dv camera for christmas.... let the games begin.

"28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes, 12 seconds, that is when the world will end." ..... wierd bunny guy.... donnie darko

so i turned twenty two recently.  no biggie, but i did get some sweet stuff.  destroy all humans is a fantastically fun game.  and gun is by far one of the coolest most exciting edge of my fucking seat kill people with peacemakers game ive ever played.  i also recieved a batman hockey jersey.  i know what youre thinking, man he'll never take it off.  oh contrare ive worn it once and it is now hanging in my closet, in a section of rarely worn clothes in a plastic garmet bag only to be donned in a time of great signifigance.  like  maybe when jonas is born.  hhaha.  ITT is pretty fun, math is frustrating, thats a bout it right now.